Tuesday, April 29, 2014

The Drums

The drums.  Tama Imperialstar with Zilgian cymbols.  You see those drums represent years of my life.  They we're first set up in our den studio, where I practiced piano at the age of 5 or 6.  I thought that room was haunted, more about that later.  My mom taught me the most important thing a musician needs to know...how to count to 4.  I remember hours of playing, and counting loudly and blinking every time I hit the snare drum.  I still do!  I also remember countless of hours of feeling abandoned because mom was practicing, a lot. I didn't understand that it was her art, or her work, or way of life.  I just remember going in time and time again and she was still playing, probably learning songs, I know now, but I thought she was just ignoring me.  

So to sell them, or even trade for a good brake job, is not in me.  I thought it might be, if the price were right or I wanted my friend to have them.  But as I looked at them in the attic music room of that old house that I am not packing up quickly enough, I cried and realized those drums are part of me.  I can't get rid of the them anymore than the hundreds of guitars, or paintings, or much else.  I know I have to part with most of it, but somethings just go too deep, and the drums are one of those things,  They are technically my drums, she bought them for me, told me they were for me, but she played them.  She saved them for me all those years, and carefully brought them back and forth from house to house.  

So I guess we are going to make a music room out of the basement sooner or later.  I'll be practicing my drums and counting loudly so that all the world knows I can keep the beat.  I think I do have good timing, thanks Mom! 

Not my drums, but some just like them...

Friday, April 18, 2014

Feeling Groovy

I don't remember what I was going to post with that title, but it looks good.  Today is the first day of the rest of my life.  I'm going to get better, I have to.  Saving money is so hard when you need every cent and it's not enough.  How can I make more?  Can you be a test family for vans and cars?  Could my kids and I tell the companies how well a family fits and can use their car?  I bet there is a job out there like that for us.  Just have to find it.  Speaking of finding things, the meds I am on are supposed to help my ADHD... I know I have it, just didn't know how to get tested.  Turns out I took the test with my kids.  3 out of 4 so far can't be wrong.  Good luck!

Springtime in the Shoe

We are winding down the school year with lots of concerts and programs at schools.  My school year has been busy, overshadowed by personal sadness.  I went to the doctor today for anti-depressants.  I knew that crying all the time was not good, but didn't really put it together until today.  We are test driving a Traverse tonight.  Love it!  Dad said that he would match what we could save for a down payment on a new/ new to us vehicle.  I want a Traverse, or a mini van.  Something with 3 rows, 4 bucket captain's chairs, within 3 years old, low miles, and has Bluetooth for my phone.  Not too much to ask, and a low payment, that's great!  We found this one but it's about 6 years old, and has
more miles, but it's really nice!  Dark blue.  Waiting for Amy to bring home Emma from a ball game/play date.  She's good to me, and my kids.  So glad we are friends.  Doctor said I might need to journal, it could help.  Random thoughts, here they are!